CUPCAKES!!!!!!!

I have been craving cupcakes all day!!!!! These ones look DELISH!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE sprinkles!!!!!!!!! I am def gonna be making cupcakes tonight! Its been much too long! haha! Maybe I'll take a pic of mine...lets just home they come out ok! lol.

Aww, Thursdays..

Hey everyone!! So, today's been a pretty great day so far!! I had a job interview for a new position at the company I've been working at for the past 3 years...went pretty well! Just waiting to hear back now...ooo the wait!!! haha! Besides that, I've been feeling waaaayy better than I have been! Im taking a little trip to visit my family this weekend, which will be really nice to get away and have some time to mysef...oh, and get out of the heat for a while too! lol. No luck on getting a 2nd job yet tho...damn this economy!! But Im not giving up! Planning on trying to look some more today..lets cross our fingers! Well, just thought I'd let you know how I've been doing... Hope everybody has an AWESOME Thursday!!!!! Tomorrow's FRIDAY!!.. YAAAYY!!!!!!! :)

Day 1...

So, I decided I'm feeling a little better today...sleep helped, but I still think I need a change. I think for now Im gonna start with myself. Gonna try to be healthy and keep busy...oh, and try to find a 2nd job! That way I can save up $$ and HOPEFULLY be able to move!!! I've always wanted to be on the east coast so much!!, so I figured now would be the perfect time to finally do it!! I wanna be by subways and skyscrapers and see rain and snow.......just something thats completly different than where I am now. So here goes....day 1 of a new me!! :)

I need a life makeover!!

Ever had one of those days when you feel like noone cares and your so alone and nothing in the world can go right?!.....Im definitly feeling like that lately. I feel like Im at such a breaking point in my life, and if I dont change my surroundings, I dont know what I'll do with myself. I cant seem to find myself right now and I just need to do some soul searching bad!! Problem is, I dont have a clue where to start.. I wanna move. I need a whole life change and I think moving away and starting fresh would be the best way to do it. Im so mixed up and lost in all this drama crap called "life". I just feel like I need to escape it all before I go completly crazy!! I dont know who I am anymore and I WANT TO FIND OUT!!

I just found this little statement on a website that explains to a "T" how I feel.........

Whether it is to a friend or not, you shield yourself. You hide behind a silk screen whenever you're scared or nervous. You hide from people, especially yourself. You don't know your true self... yet. You believe that if you let people find out the real you, you will soon be betrayed. However, being under a silk screen, people can see what you're truly hiding. Your friends will always be there to talk to, but you just need to work up the courage to tell them what's on your mind. You shouldn't be scared of what's coming up next in your life. You need to embrace your inner self. Take action now. Sooner or later, you will need to face the music.


Yeah, so I think right now I just need some really good advise....and possibly a better friend that actually WANTS to listen to what I've gotta say. Im just sick of fake people that you think care, but really just dont.......

Well, thankyou for reading..and sorry I sound so damn whinny!!..I feel a little better now that I kinda let a little out. And p.s. ..... any advise helps so dont feel shy to post!!! And thx again! Tryin to cheer up :P